I've Built My Life Around You...

Today I've been thinking a lot about my family... Memories of growing up, family tradiontions growing up... Song we listened to... Over the years I have more vivid memories of my mom, my brother & I together then of my dad with us... Not sure why that is but that's how my memory is... So today's song is one that I know by heart & the band is one of my mom's favorites. I love my mom with all my heart so today my blog is dedicated to her... I don't know where I'd be without her. She is the best mom & my best friend.

Love you forever mom

~Your Butterfly~

Landslide by Fleetwood Mac ~

Took this love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Till the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
And can I sail through the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Oh oh I don't know, oh I don't know

Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older I'm getting older too
Yes I'm getting older too, so

I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I, I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too oh yes
I'm getting older too

So, take this love, take it down
Oh if you climb a mountain and you turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring you down, down
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills

Well maybe the landslide will bring you down
Well well, the landslide will bring you down

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NsLykJ17Oxc

Cause I could use some friends for a change...

Hello All,
I know I've been absent for so long & once again I apologize! But my life if finally back to normal! So my blog will now follow. I can now get back to posting once a day as i did once long ago... So to start the new path fresh a song that starts everything fresh!
This song makes me wanna get up & dance! I can't sit still even now with it blaring in my ears i can't sit still! The words fit perfect but the music itself is what i fell in love with...

Some Nights by Fun. ~

Some nights, I stay up cashing in my bad luck
Some nights, I call it a draw
Some nights, I wish that my lips could build a castle
Some nights, I wish they'd just fall off

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know anymore...
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa oh oh
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa oh oh

This is it, boys, this is war - what are we waiting for?
Why don't we break the rules already?
I was never one to believe the hype - save that for the black and white
I try twice as hard and I'm half as liked, but here they come again to jack my style

And that's alright; I found a martyr in my bed tonight
She stops my bones from wondering just who I am, who I am, who I am
Oh, who am I? mmm... mmm...

Well, some nights, I wish that this all would end
Cause I could use some friends for a change
And some nights, I'm scared you'll forget me again
Some nights, I always win, I always win...

But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for, oh
What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
Most nights, I don't know... (come on)

So this is it? I sold my soul for this?
Washed my hands of God for this?
I miss my mom and dad for this?

(Come on)

No. When I see stars, when I see, when I see stars, that's all they are
When I hear songs, they sound like this one, so come on
Oh, come on. Oh, come on, OH COME ON!

Well, that is it guys, that is all - five minutes in and I'm bored again
Ten years of this, I'm not sure if anybody understands
This one is not for the folks at home; Sorry to leave, mom, I had to go
Who the fuck wants to die alone all dried up in the desert sun?

My heart is breaking for my sister and the con that she call "love"
When I look into my nephew's eyes...
Man, you wouldn't believe the most amazing things that can come from...
Some terrible lies...ahhh...

Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh oh
Oh whoa, oh whoa, oh whoa, oh oh

The other night, you wouldn't believe the dream I just had about you and me
I called you up, but we'd both agree
It's for the best you didn't listen
It's for the best we get our distance... oh...
It's for the best you didn't listen
It's for the best we get our distance... oh...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKBD8EUQdOY

Is That Alright...?

Lately I've been feeling a little lost... To me that word has so many meanings right now... I feel alone in a dark room and the walls are starting to close in and I don't know how much longer i can hold them off...or just let them cave in... So this song that i picked out tonight seems to fit that perfectly for me right now...

9 Crimes by Damien Rice ~

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If u don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you dont shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it, how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
If I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
Is that alright with you?

Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?
Is that alright?
Is that alright?
Is that alright with you?

No...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5rK574swXc

What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger~

Ok So today I got my first Ever apartment! Its my first place where it's just mine & I don't have to share it with anyone!!! So I will be moving this week & I can't do the blog & move in 4 days! So tonight's song will be my last one till I move into my new place! I have the perfect song to pick for tonight too! When I'm unpacked & situated I will start posting again...So until then...

Stronger by Kelly Clarkson ~

You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in color
And do the things I want

You think you got the best of me
Think you've had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on, over you

You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You try to break me, but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking about me
You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning
In the end...

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

[2x]
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

(When I'm alone)


 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xn676-fLq7I

There's No Simple Explanation...

Today is/was very hard for me... I've been very stressed that last 24 hours. I've managed to compartmentalize everything thus far...Not sure if that's good or bad, but it's what I'm doing to survive the hard times right now... Anyway the song I choose for today helped me a lot today...
Maybe tomorrow will be better, but for today its just slow & soothing.

Courage by Sarah Polley ~

Watch the band through a bunch of dancers
Quickly, follow the unknown
With something more familiar
Quickly, something familiar

Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter

Sleepwalk, so fast asleep
In the motel that has the lay of home
And piss on all of your background
And piss on all your surroundings

Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter
Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter, uh-huh-huh
Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter, uh-huh-huh
Courage couldn't come at a worse time

There's no simple explanation
For anything important any of us do
Yeah, the human tragedy
Consists in the necessity
Of living with the consequences
Under pressure, under pressure

Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter, uh-huh-huh
Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter, uh-huh-huh
Courage, my word
It didn't come, it doesn't matter
Courage couldn't come at a worse time
(Worse time)

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2QmjWDMr0yM

She's One Of A Kind

Sorry, I know its been a few days since my last post. But as I said before its gonna take me a bit to get used to my new schedule! So I'm doing this on my lunch at work right now. Just in case I forget to do it later...

Today's song is very country! I chose to do a Tim Mcgraw song because it was all I ever listened to when I spent weekends with My dad & my brother after our parents split... Today I have those memories playing over & over! Spending time together just the 3 of us. So I wanted to pick out a song in memory of that! Hope you enjoy it...Just listening to it for me brings a huge smile to my face...

Indian Outlaw by Tim McGraw ~

I'm an Indian outlaw
Half Cherokee and Choctaw
My baby she's a Chippewa
She's one of a kind

All my friends call me Bear Claw
The Village Cheaftin' is my paw-paw
He gets his orders from my maw-maw
She makes him walk the line

You can find me in my wigwam
I'll be beatin' on my tom-tom
Pull out the pipe and smoke you some
Hey and pass it around

'Cause I'm an Indian outlaw
Half Cherokee and Choctaw
My baby she's a Chippewa
She's one of a kind

I ain't lookin' for trouble
We can ride my pony double
Make your little heart bubble
Lord, Like a glass of wine

I remember the medicine man
He caught runnin' water in my hands
Drug me around by my headband
Said I wasn't her kind

Cause I'm an Indian outlaw
Half Cherokee and Choctaw
My baby she's a Chippewa
She's one of a kind

I can kill a deer or buffalo
With just my arrow and my hickory bow
>From a hundred yards don't you know
I do it all the time

They all gather 'round my teepee
Late at night tryin' to catch a peek at me
In nothin' but my buffalo briefs
I got 'em standin' in line

Cause I'm an Indian outlaw
Half Cherokee and Choctaw
My baby she's a Chippewa
She's one of a kind

Cherokee people
Cherokee tribe
So proud to live
So proud to die


 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iFsdwTIYtHE

I'm All Alone...

Today is one of those days where I am hitting my limit. There are so many things to do, but at the same time some of these things can wait, but I don't want to wait on them... Anyway the song I picked out today I've been blaring out of my speakers for 2 days straight. This song helps me go from one minute to the next.

Torn Down by Signs Of Betrayal ~ 

The breath of you is burning through the skin
And all you do is lingering within
You have become the drug that makes me weak
You’re just too numb to chance my honesty

Is truth too much to bare?
Does the past make you afraid?
In a perfect world you’re there
To make things okay

You tore me down then walked away
And could you see it’s killing me?
So hard I try to hide my cries
And could you see it’s killing me?

I can’t pretend perfections not in me
I should have guessed you wanted to believe
The words I said you threw them all away

You tore me down then walked away
And could you see it’s killing me?
So hard I try to hide my cries
And could you see it’s killing me?

I’m holding on
You can’t be gone
The thought of it is terrifying
I’m all alone
These wretched walls
Reminding me that we can’t be

You tore me down then walked away
And could you see it’s killing me?
So hard I try to hide my cries
And could you see it’s killing me?


 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5h90l7vL6ts